It is easy to say that you have faith in someone or something. We say we have faith in our spouses, in God, in our friends, in our children. Even George Michael knew that you “Gotta Have Faith”. Faith is immeasurable, and something that we cannot see. But, there comes a moment where our faith is tested.
Perhaps it’s when someone see your spouse with a member of the opposite sex, and tells you about it. It turns out to be their cousin, twice removed. For a fleeting moment though, you doubt your faith in your spouse. Until you knew who it was, you felt that sick feeling in your stomach, and your heart felt like it was about to explode. If you truly had faith in your spouse, you would have not felt any of those feelings. You would have known without a doubt that there was nothing to worry about.
True faith isn’t something that should waver. True faith is knowing that everything is going to be okay, regardless of what happens. My faith was tested this week. While the aforementioned scenario is fictional in my life, I am being tested now. This week I have had moments of fear, and panic. I have had moments where I have I broken down and cried because my plans and God’s plans aren’t lining up. What I wanted for my family isn’t what he is wanting, and I am scared. Even though I am scared, I am finding moments where I know that everything is going to work out. My faith is being tested, and while I initially failed, it is getting stronger every day.
There have been times in the past where my faith was tested, and I failed miserably. I turned my back from God instead of turning towards him. There were entire years that I had no faith in God, and I was angry. This trial that I am facing right now has helped me to see how much I have grown. I am not angry at God, but I am trusting Him to work it out. I am trusting Him to open a way, and trusting that He is protecting us from something. Our faith will get us through. Will we waiver? Yes. Will we be worried? Yes. But, in the end, we will come out stronger than before. That’s something about faith. When it’s tested, and you see that it all works out, your faith becomes stronger. My faith is stronger today that it was a year ago. My faith today cannot even compare to my faith a year from now.