2019 is in the books. Those days that made up the year are now part of our history, and 2020 is our future. What will those days entail? To look at where we are going, we must first look at where we have been.
2019 was a year of self-discovery and change. It was a year of learning, of renewing hope and faith. It was a year of growth. I learned that if God closes one door for you, he opens another. It may not be what you dreamed for yourself, but ultimately it is the path that you needed to be one.
There were many celebrations and successes. I began chasing dreams that I wasn’t aware I had until the moments presented themselves. Big things are happening for me, and I am beyond excited to see what the future holds.
2019 wasn’t perfect. I failed more times that I can count. I failed myself, my family and probably a million other people. Yet, I choose not to dwell on my failures. I choose to look at the growth that took place because of them.
I became stronger, mentally and emotionally. I learned about forgiveness, especially when an apology was never said. I changed the way I let others treat me, but I also learned how to respond with love and kindness. I have gained the maturity that allows me to see that not everyone I allowed in my life has the best interest for me. I gained the strength to let them go, but the compassion and empathy to want to see them reach the best version of themselves.
I watched my children grow. They grew in strength, stature, faith, intelligence, compassion and love. I watched my daughter get baptized and find her first love. I watched my sons conquer fears and be braver than they could have ever imagined. I watched my husband become more confident in himself. I have watched him be a role model for our children.
I was blessed in 2019, and I pray that in 2020 our blessings increase. I pray that we can be blessings for others in times of need. I pray that we show compassion to those who are hurting. I pray that I can forgive everyone who has wronged me. I pray that I continue to grow spiritually. That I always turn to prayer in times of thanksgivings and trials.
For 2020 I want to become braver, stronger, and more confident in myself and my abilities. I want to always put my best foot forward and leave negativity behind. Whether it be my own negativity, or the negativity of others.
I want to let go of my past failures, and the trials that I have let define me for so long. That is the only way that I can create a peaceful future.
I want to stop letting the words of others steal my peace.
I want to laugh more, smile often, and love bigger than I ever have.
I want to be the best version of me that I can for those people in my life.
The clock striking midnight on January 1st isn’t a magic wand, and it isn’t a reset button. It is an opportunity to reflect and redirect our actions. But then again, every day is the same. We can choose to change our actions and become better versions of ourselves every single day. We don’t need to wait until a new year to do this. In fact, we shouldn’t. We should make change when we see that it needs to be made. Afterall, we are never guaranteed another breath. We are never guaranteed another chance to do better. We should always strive to be the best versions of ourselves.