I have horrible night vision. I have something called visual snow. Basically, what this means is that in my field of vision, I never really see things clearly. There are always these little, white, pinpoints of light. When I look at items that are light colored, they are not as obvious. However, when I look at darker objects, they stand out more. I first remember seeing this when I was about 5 years old. Most of the time, I can tune it out, however at night it is amplified.
When the lights go out, everything becomes the same shade and there are millions of white, pinpoints of light. Essentially, when the lights go out, I see white. The white is like a cloud over everything. I can’t make out shapes or images.
Most of the time, this isn’t an issue. When it’s dark, I am asleep. However, if I need to get up and use the restroom, or something is urgent that I must get up for, I have issues. I cannot count the number of times I have walked into a wall or tripped over something. My husband laughs at me, and most of the time I laugh too. There have been a couple of times that it really hurt. Once was after my recent surgery.
Many of you are probably asking yourself why I don’t just turn on the light so that I can see. The truth is, this would be an obvious solution. Yet, we as humans tend to avoid the obvious solution because it takes a little more work. Sure, me turning on the bedside lamp wouldn’t be a horrible inconvenience. I could fumble around and find the switch fairly easily. It would take less than a minute, unless I knocked the lamp over, yet I refuse to do it.
Think about that for a second. I would rather walk into a wall, or trip over something, instead of turning on a light that would allow me to see. Doesn’t that sound ridiculous? Absolutely insane? Completely unreasonable?
Yet, let me ask you this question. How many of you have struggled with something? Truly struggled? It may be anxiety, depression, or addiction. It might be a self-esteem issue, or a toxic relationship (of any kind). The fact of the matter is that we all have struggled with something. Yet, how many times have you turned to prayer and the help that God can provide?
God is the lamp in the middle of the darkness, shining his light for us to help us see the way. It would take only a matter of moments to surrender our burdens to him, yet we refuse to turn on the light. Instead, we choose to stumble around in the darkness, tripping over our problems and smacking into walls.
I thought about his yesterday at church when we sang “I Saw The Light”. Read the lyrics below and think about a scenario in your life that you have been in the darkness about.
“I saw the light. I saw the light. No more darkness, no more night.
Now I’m so happy, no sorrow in sight. Praise the Lord, I saw the light. I wandered so aimless, life filled with sin. I wouldn’t let my dear Savior in.
Then Jesus came like a stranger in the night. Praise the Lord I saw the light.
Just like a blind man, I wandered along. Worries and fears I claimed for my own.
Then like a blind man God gave back his sight. Praise the Lord I saw the light.
I was a fool to wander and stray. Straight is the gate and narrow the way.
Now I have traded the wrong for all the right. Praise the Lord I saw the light.”
Although I have heard this song a hundred times, it wasn’t until yesterday that I made the connection. When I heard the song yesterday, I pictured myself at night stumbling through the bedroom. My stubbornness prevents me from turning on the light that would make my endeavors so much easier.
What’s preventing you from turning on the light? It is your stubbornness? Pride? Whatever it is, it is keeping you from the clarity that you need. The clarity that only God can bring.